2008 was not a really good year for me. the only thing that makes me feel good is im legalized. the feeling of being 18 was good. club, smoke and drink. it was good though. i felt free, i feel me!

but when come parts to L O V E, i was a little weak. i fell in love with mentel when i was mid 17. he was my classmate. he's shy, loud, irritating and lovable. he own a bad boy image. not matrep lah. but more to rocking stuff.

he was the first ever boy that i never try to be unloyal. but instead, mentel has been such a jerk back on june 08. i didnt expect that things got worse. he wanted to patch back with his ex gf. he DIE-DIE want to patch back her. so i broke up with him and so he tried on WOO his exgf back. maybe, luck is not on his side. she rejected him and he came back to me. i was afraid that he will do the same thing again, but nahh.. he prove me wrong. he did change for good. but i was kinda feel weird when i noticed that every single of my letters, messages and pictures he didnt delete or throw it away. when i asked him why, he said he dont know. and he continued saying that he even ever made a picture video of us. but he deleted cos he dont want to show anybody. DUE TO HIS EGO! dumb boy.

now lets make a new era/resolution for 2009;
- license on 2B.
- KR or GILERA.
- a full-time stable job as a retail asst.
- get a good body shape.
- whiten up body contour.
- get mentel a bag for his 19th birthday gift.



I would like to take an opportunity to say to my dear readers.
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
(:
love you people!

today marks the last day of 2008. so cant wait for the upcoming event. i mean, we'll getting older and more more to maturity. but i want to be 27 cos mentel say he will only propose to me when we're 27. fucker that boy! && my relationship with him gonna be ONE YEAR OLD. happeyy~!

oh! i get to talk with mentel yesterday night. but only for a while. itu pon not good conversation. i cried, only mahathir knows why. should not elaborate uh. i dont want to end up crying for small things. ):



If only you knew... Everytime I see you, im speechless... breathless. Whenever I have the chance to see you, I'd take it in an instant. If you knew how often I thought of you, you'd be blown away. If you knew that I compare everyone else I come across to you, you'd be blushing. But if you knew how badly you hurt my heart and how whenever I see you I just want to break down and cry... you would feel so guilty that someone so "special" to you has to feel this unbearable pain... even worse, you're the person causing it.

BOYFRIEND = MENTEL
if fitri calls iz sepet,
then im calling nazrul mentel!
i miss mentel.
((:

there's so many things crossing in my mind right now.
what's my mentel's doing?
where's our NYE celebration gonna held?
what's gonna be on our very 1st year celebration?
so many right?

ouh anw, ive dyed my fringe blonde. haha!
boring lah, so i dyed.
i bet that mentel gonna say.
'b ni macam minahrep sey.'
haha! where got, im simply yanny.
and im the only yanny that is not a minahrep .
not like those small girl-girl lor.
name nak step bagus jer. tuh lah ini lah.
haha! bullshitting is my job!
not happy, your business lor.

mom says my eyes is getting worse due to sleepless nights.
ive own a very bad eye bags and dark circles.





He may not be the most attractive, he may not say all the right words, but when I see him, I know he's the one that can make me smile, laugh, and cry all at the same time.

i got a very gooooooood sleep yesterday afternoon till night.
haha! i woke up, i filled up my tummy.
after eating, i ate this sleeping pill so i can sleep again.
so i get my sleep at 12+ and woke up at 4+.
im still wakey2 till now but i felt super tired.

i dont think im gonna meet naz today nor tomorrow.
haiz. i miss that boy.
i wonder whats he's doing.
=.=

i feel bad the other time i was talking about naz's aunty. she just passed away today. it was that fast. she was having a heart attack plus stroke on saturday and today she passed away. i just hope god's doing the best things for her. amin.

so now he's not coming and i wasted my hours by doing azza's blog. she dont know how to edit her blog. so i did for her lor.. now very pretty already. i just hope she likes it lorr.
and she owe me nasi ayam hahaha!

im bored, maybe i should sleep now.
._______________."

i always do no matter how much pain i get from him.
naz didnt call or message me through out the sunday.
the day before, he told me to bare cos his parents dont let their children to use their hp that long.

For your information, i own a relationship that is less fortunate.
we dont get money as long as we like,
we dont own a job.
but we do really looking forward for january as that will be plenty of vacancies.
should be uh? i hope so.
so anyway, eventhough we dont own alot of money.
we still love each other and make stupid surprises.
like how he buys me FOOD! yummy~

its so early in the morning.
im actually waiting for 9.30am to watch the ellen degeneres show.
its a very good variety show.
must watch it!

i might be meeting naz at 4.
pray for me he will come bishan. nyaha!

like 2 more days and we're officially ONE YEAR!
i really cant wait lor. haha! i wonder what's gonna happen? hmmph!

I really think there's a reason that I like him so much. Like something is telling me not to let him go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to him. I mean... what other explanation is there. Why is it that he is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am... I see him and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when he smiles at me... I get that feeling in my stomach? And even when he'd broken my heart, and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me... when he lied to me... and I hated him... why then did I still feel those same feelings? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I let him hurt me so much.

yesterday was quite okay,
met naz only for about 2 hours.
we laugh, quarreled, cried plus tired.
first we went to junction 8 as he wanted to buy jelly black bangles.
then he offered to buy my burger at the pasar malam.
i tell you! i love this boy cos he always never forget to buy me food!
then slack around my block area.
both of were like playing PSP together.
we played DJ MAX.
then he went home at 10.30 sharp cos i want to watch teevee.

something big happen after he went off a few hours.
we heard a huge crash that make us stunned and looked out the window.
there's a hit and run situation at the carpark.
this idiot went to crash 4 cars and my father's bike at the same time.
stupid right? all my neighbours came down kaypoh2!
very very the kecoh lorr.
the funny part was, ambulance came when no one was actually hurt.
LOL!
TP and the police were really really late.
everybody keep on taking pictures.
very funny, like ligtning strike i tell you.
flash here and there.



i miss my cousin alot.
Muhd Firman Bin Juriadi.
i wonder how much long will he be coming home.
His fiancee, daughter, his families miss him very much.
Que says he wont be going back so soon.
i wonder why?
i just hope he's not doing anything stupid.
seriously!

im super headache and super hungry. stupid me waiting for naz to come. i was planning to eat with him in my house but someone just been hospitalized. his least favourite aunty. he was force to go or else that aunty will start her MENGAROT! argh!

i feel like meeting in novena since he's in tan tock seng hospital. i wanna go velocity. its so freaking long ive never been there. but surely he lazy. stupid boy!

so now, im eating karipap! yes, i feel better with just one bite. hahaha! im super bored now. people, START LAYAN-ING ME!

so here's something new. i slept early as father was freaking irritating. he expecting me to sleep early and not to play psp nor chit chatting on the phone. so i slept at 11+ and wake up at 4.30 sharp in th morning. as a result and due to waking up at 4AM, i played psp andmy sister's phone game. nyahaha!

i might be meeting naz today. parents are going johor later.

why oh why?! saturdays are so suppose to be happening. but not for me. i will always end my day with bored bored bored. super irrit! i feel like dozing off now. but i cant cos im meeting naz at 4pm. dont want to overslept cos later member pra minyak. -.-"

naddia's future bf. can uh babe? haha!

im in reza's chalet now. bored so i blog as reza brought his lappy. good boy!

this event is very horrible, reza's sister's friends are like the boss and we cook and clean the place while they happily watching teevee, seating around popping the party poppers. -.-" i feel so sad for reza as he become the banglah for the day. sad sad.

on a lighter note, atlast i got the picture i wanted.



the guy whose have the same features as nick cannon. cute right? i know.

naz & aideel went to fetch epul at the bustop. im bored.



yah lah, christmas coming. i wonder whats our plan. i just wish we will be going to clarke quay like we did last year. so lomatik lorr. i just miss those days. ((: just cant wait whats the plan for that actual day.

oh i went to my interview just now. i dont think im going to get the job. i was tired that i keep on "gagap"-ing. geesh! i just hope i get the job. so sian~



i love boi-prend.

oh! want to see my embarrassing picture? laugh all you want, i dont care.
hahahah!

im so cant be bothered lah kan. people keep making their profile private. i wonder why? due to envy? popularity? face fact, we are all human which we all have the same things. not literally same. gosh! your bf, are nothing. i lead my life with my bf. do whatever you want in your friendster or your "babybucukboifyy". urgh! delete whoever you want. coz in other ways, i just dont care lah kan. that girl seriously got issues!

i feeling a little shaggeddd. coz i havent been sleeping well. like i said before, i hate holidays. im having a job appointment at 2.30 and really hope they give me an opportunity to work. i'll be super happy + super glad = super JYEAH!

my "babybucukboifyy" (-.-) aka naz, should be sleeping like a piglet. you know, i love the smell whenever he wakes up. busuk + bacin = i love you boy.

maybe after the interview, ill be meeting him at his house. then we drag out butts to pasir ris as reza's sister's is making a chalet. the good thing is, strictly no parents are allowed till on friday. aku suker, aku suker!

eh wait wait! im laughing at those small girls right now. not that two bitches. the ones acting like one minah rep. padahal sekeping papan! kecoh oi!

http://profiles.friendster.com/nadbeylowsiol
http://profiles.friendster.com/adeqbabe
http://profiles.friendster.com/baybieayukiesiowtiisatsat

such a disgrace.

Yes, I know youre wanted by many, but just think about it...you know I'll always be the girl who loved you more, I'll always be the girl who was there for you always, I'll always be the girl you feel the most comfortable with, but I can promise you this... I won't always be the girl who waited their whole life to try and make you realize it.

those bitches. please...! i really hope they read my blog. i swear i dont give a fuck care on them. they are like one small kids and im playing along with them.

i miss nazrul cos he's missing out the actions im doing to this girls. (:

this is nurul ain the girl i hate the most! but its was a good thing that she got fuck with my friend! padan muker kau!



then this is nur hanina kanina. the girl who muka tk tau malu also. come and sleep alone at my bf's house. -.-"

guess what? i didnt get to meet naz yesterday due to my sleepless nights that i woke up at 6.30pm. BAGUS yanny. keep it up the good work. tomorrow is naz's mum's birthday and im not getting anything for her. cant be bother as a D-I-L-wannabe. nyaha!

anyways, ive been a stalker for wingtaiasia's company. i kept calling them to check whether they found my application form. -.-" okay, padahal call setakat 2 kali ajer. i have to call then back at 2 as they having their lunch. ):

i really hope to get a stable job as a retail asst. im taking as a full-time actually. cant wait! seriously so cant wait!

meet safrinah the birthday girlon that thursday. i bet she cant forget that very moment. its kinda cool to have colleagues who really click with you and all.

so anyway, sorry for not updating for the past days. nyeha! i went to The Arena on last thursday(ladies night). it was a very meaningful day for safrinah as it was her 19th birthday. (: we do had alot fun. at 3.30 the clubs stop and we headed to riverside. the boys were super crazaye! at 7plus we proceed to the bustop and i headed myself to..



his house. HAH! for like 4nights? im always hungry nowadays and im gaining my weight back. naz been calling me boncet. wadever lah boy! you still love love me, i know. and you know you still pamper me with FOOOOOOD!

back then, when i slept in naz's house. i saw something that i didnt expected to see. i just dont know where to start and i dont wish to say about it coz it might hurt you. i just hope you realize that your boyfriend is not faithful with you. doesnt matter how long you are with him, its about trust. im sorry, i just dont want to be the problem maker. i wonder if she ever saw naz's slept with nina. (not making love, just sleep)that nina sial! pfft! NUR HANINA KANINA YOU!

talking about nina, theres this girl named fya. haiz. why lah why? those small girls always "rosakkan relationship orang?" fya lah, sabrina lah, nina sial lah, ain sundal lah. the one i put extra comment means the one who wants my relationship with naz to be torn apart. but that was before lorr. but anyway, that fya has been a bitch since forever. this bitch seriously got issues! her puki i dont know how many guys has been connecting it already. my sister have some problems with this 15-years-old slut. -.-"

other then that.


i miss this senorita of mine. i wonder hows shes been doing with her big perot. gosh!

If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me...

gees! i only got to sleep for two bloody hours. i talked with naz till late 4 am. i cant really sleep well now. thats why i hate holidays. surely got insomnia. i swear i hate this. gosh! now im sleepy.

oh oh!

happy birthday to BIBI.
who have just turned 18 today. and she's freaking happy right now.
haha!

i miss school. i miss the fun. but minus off the bad moments.

today stuck at home like shit. planned to go search for jobs but someone ditched. -.-''
maybe going tomorrow with naddia. gosh!

i might be going to club tomorrow. yay! i cant stand with my dad and mum irrit shits! so cant wait for the night! sweet!



kau memang sentiaser blur boy.

You will always be the answer, when somebody asks me what I'm thinking about.

i met kakak kesygan ku today, CASSANDRA! haha. i miss her badly and she treat me milo dino and thosai paper. i was actually cravings for thosai. haha! thanks kak.

after that i met nazrul at his house and plan for that day was to watch two movies. Twilight and senario the movie. twilight was freaking nice i tell you! its a love between a human and a vampire. coolios!

anw,
i love bf. (:


You know you're in love when you don't wanna go to sleep at night because your life is better than a dream.

i was known as Rihanna fake from naz sister because of my concave hair.
-.-"

at last ive got my ruffled dress. nice. (:

yesterday night, met kak wanie in amk as she was searching for abg yus. hahahha! funny, naz and me followed her. but at 11.40plus naz went off. takot tertinggal bus gitu lor. (:

tight at 12 abg yus came to work and he talk about why and all. then we wlked back home from amk. exercise gitu lor!

i miss bf. ):

breath taking.

im freaking tired. dad wants me to be awake cause maybe postman is coming. -.-" walaowei! then later im going out some more. so lame. so boring.

i might be getting my white ruffled dress today. swapping with this girl. okay uh, not that bad. just a simple normal dress. (:

naz's probably sleeping. haiyer. so lame lah that boy~ sleep sleep like piglet.
-.-"

God gave us two ears to hear, two eyes to see and two hands to hold. But why did God give us only one heart? Because he wants us to find the other one.

feeling feeling tourist gitu lor.

today was a boring day for me. naz and me didnt enjoy that much. but it was quite okay. we went to amk hub to watch looney toons. last saturday we watched sesame streets. naz layankan kebudakaan aku. lol!



Md. Sani Bin Salem.
Happy 19th birthday boy~!

ive been scolding them since naz been lying and reza was at his back all along. apologise accepted??

last monday was my eleventh anniversarywith naz. it was quite sweet that he kissed my forehead and told me happy 11th months b. HAHA! act romantic ajer nie budak!

i should tell you this;

SCHOOLS OUT!
SCREAM AND SHOUT!

yes uh! ive finished my 2 years course in ITE and im very very happy plus sad as well. gosh im gonna miss my fella classmates. boohoo+yayness!

anw, see ya around. (:

I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.